In about September 2004, I realised there was something missing in my life, a kind of void inside me. At the time I didn't know why I had this kind of feeling of emptiness, so I tried to forget about it, but nothing I did made a difference - all that happened was my mind was taken off the fact I had this constant voice in the back of my head telling me something wasn't right.
After a while I started to look at my parents lives, and I realised how amazing it would be to have that constant support there, to know that you would never be alone because God would always be there for you - all I had to do was ask. But I pushed the thought away as I was scared of what I would have to face being a young Christian in this day and age.
About a month later, at Christmas, I got a book from Church - called "A life worth living." Although it was the third in a series, it was very helpful to me as it was about a girl, similar to me, in a similar predicament.
As I read it, I realised I had to ask God into my life, without him I was nothing. So on New-year's eve, I told my mum all this and said I really wanted to be a Christian, so we sat down together and I prayed to God for forgiveness. God was gracious and forgiving, and now I have that permanent security, that feeling of peace inside me, and I know I will never be alone again, God will always be with me, forever and ever.